Awwww...

Me Luv Dadi

Look at where her finger is pointing to. Hehehe!

xoxo

When a Baby is Born, So is a Mother...

Name: Mikaela Yzabelle Taylan Suarez
Nickname: Kylie
Date of Birth: April 26, 2009 (Sunday)
Time: 12:27 PM
Hospital: Sentosa Medical Centre, Kuala Lumpur Malaysia
Weight: 2.5 kg
Height: 49 cm

Until now, it keeps me wondering what on earth have I done that is so noble to deserve the best angel from heaven.

Photos here.

Happy Birthday to the Bestest Mom in the World!

I love you Mama!!!

Things I've Learned About Jay-ar :)

One of the things I enjoyed about Jay-ar's mom being here is that I have come to know things about Jay-ar that Jay-ar does not want to share with me. Why? Simply because I will use those info against him. Hahaha! You see, Jay-ar and I love to tease each other about each others bad traits, embarrassing moments, gross mannerisms and others. This is how we show affection to each other. And so, to Jay-ar’s dismay, whenever he’s not around for work, his mom will tell me stories about his childhood.

Read the rest of this post.

Updates! Updates!

Last weekend was PC fair here in KL. So Jay-ar & I decided to go to buy a printer at para maigala na din namin ang mom nya. The PC fair was in KLCC and as usual, even though it was raining hard, ang dami dami pa ding tao shopping for gadgets.

Anyway, ang pinamimilian naming bilin ni Jay-ar na printer is either HP brand or Canon. Syempre nde naman kami masyado gagastos sa printer so ang balak lang namin bilin is yung cheapest na 3-in-1 (photo copier, scanner & printer). At first, syempre biased ako sa HP kasi I was working with HP and yung printer namin sa bahay sa Pinas is 3-in-1 na HP. But Jay-ar called his friend and asked him to check from the internet the reviews of the 2 printers which is better and he told us na mas maganda daw ang review sa Canon so we decided to buy Canon instead. Another reason kung bat mas oks din ang Canon ay mas okay ang freebies nila. Ang HP, watch lang ang ibibigay, which I doubt kung may gagamit naman nun samin. Sa Canon ang freebies ay hand towel, face towel and laptop bag, which is for me, more usable in our case. Meron pang isang freebie sa Canon na gustong gusto namin, which is yung trolley pero free lang yun kapag yung mejo mas mahal na printer (with fax) yung bibilin namin. Eh wala naman kaming phone line sa condo so sayang ang fax machine so pinilit na lang namin nag titinda na instead na yung towels and bag and freebies namin, exhange na lang namin sa trolley. Ayaw pumayag kasi bilang lang daw yun at each item daw may designated na freebies. Asar. By the way, yung trolley pala is usable kapag marami kang bibilin sa grocery at usable na din agad kasi ang laki at ang bigat ng printer so ang hirap buhatin. Kawawa naman si Jay-ar kasi sya lang pwede mag buhat nun.

Anyway, back to story... Binili na din namin yung printer kahit na ayaw ibigay samin yung freebie na gs2 namin. Pagkabayad namin, buhat ni Jay-ar ang mabigat na printer habang nakikipag siksikan kami sa maraming tao. Pagdating sa freebies claim area, ako lang ang humarap dun sa girl sa counter. Kinuha nya ang receipt ko to check kung anu ang freebies na bibigay nya sakin. Sabi ko sa kanya, kung pwede bang trolley na lang instead na bag and towels.. syempre ayaw nya din pumayag... di daw pwede. Sabi ko mahihirapan kasi akong buhatin yung printer at mabigat. Ayaw nya pa din payag. So inabot nya sakin yung freebies then aalis na kong luhaan. Hehehe! Tapos bigla nya ko tinawag ulit, wait lang daw. Apparently, nakita nya na buntis ako at inabutan nya ako agad ng trolley tapos sorry sya ng sorry sakin. Hehehe! Ang bait naman nung babae. Mataas kasi yung counter kaya nung mejo nakalayo ako, chaka nya lang nakita na buntis ako. Buti na lang dun ako sa babae na yun nakapila kasi yung ibang counter mga lalaki ang naka assign. Pag lalaki, walang pakialam sayu kahit buntis ka kasi nde nila alam ang feeling. Ibabalik ko pa sana yung bag at towels na una na nyang nabigay sakin kaya lang nde na nya kinuha at binigyan nya pa ko ng plastic bag para dun ko ilagay yung ibang freebies. Ayus diba. Ang bait.

Actually, ewan ko lang sa pinas pero dito sa Malaysia, pag buntis ka may mga benefits ka din. Yun yung lagi kang papa upuin sa train kapag tayuan. May mag o-offer ng seat sayu (usually mga babae tlaga) wala kasing pakialam mga lalaki. Mag pe-pretend pa yung mga lalaki na nde ka nakita or tutulog kunyari. Kakapal muks. Kapag sa pila sa toilet pinapauna din ako kasi buntis ako. Nakaka pasok din ako sa mga "Exit" na gates or pinto kasi malayo pag sa entrance papasok. Hehehe! Syempre kung sino kasama ng buntis, nakakapasok din. Pag papara naman ng taxi, ako pinapa-para ni Jay-ar para hihinto ang taxi kasi maaawa sa buntis. Kaya si Jay-ar nag te-take advantage sa pagiging buntis ko. Lagi nyang binabalandra ang malaki kong chan. Hehehe! E malapit na ko manganak, so mawawala na yung mga privileges ko na yun. Nung sinabi ko yun kay Jay-ar, ang sabi ba naman sakin, "dibale, malaki pa din chan mo nun pag kapanganak mo". Ungas. Hehehe!

Eto pala ang pics ng bago naming printer.

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Last Saturday, I had a check up with my OB. Good news and bad news. Good news is that my baby is already full term and pwede na sya lumabas anytime! Bad news is that the head of my baby is still not engaged with my pelvis. Kailangan daw mag engage yun para sa normal delivery. Haaaayyysss... Excited na kaming lahat sa baby namin ni Jay-ar. Gs2 ko na din sya lumabas kasi uncomfortable na din ako matulog sa gabi at most of all, gs2 na namin sya makita.

Nag research ako sa internet at sabi dun na iba iba daw ang weeks kung kelan nag engage ang head ng baby sa pelvis. Minsan daw (mostly pag first baby), nag engage lang yun head pag mag le-labor na. Sabi ng OB ko mataas pa daw ang baby. Hay, parang ayaw lumabas ng baby ko. Lalo nya kaming pinapa excite. Lalo na si Jay-ar at tinutulak na nyang pababa ang chan ko. Hehehe! Gs2 na tlaga kong pa-anakin. So we have no choice but to wait, wait, and wait. Sinasamahan ko din ng walking every morning sa pool side ng condo namin kasama ang mom ni Jay-ar. I dunno if that will help pero walking is good naman tlaga para sa mga buntis. Oks pa din naman kasi ang due date ko naman is April 30. Although full term na si baby, meron pa syang until end of the month para lumabas.

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As I have been mentioning above, andito na ang mom ni Jay-ar. She arrived here in Malaysia last April 1 and will be staying here to help us take care of the baby for 3 months. Marami na din kami na pag pasyalan sa kanya. We already went to Orchid Garden, Ikea, KLCC, Petronas, Bukit Bintang and malls like Midvalley Megamall, Pavilion, Suria and of course sa the mall (which is tapat lang ng condo namin). Hehehe! We are still planning to go to Bird Park, KL Tower, Petronas bridge, Acquaria, Genting, Butterfly park and more mall tours. Hehehe! Yung iba jan pupuntahan pag dumating na ang dad ni Jay-ar dito sa Malaysia sa June. Ako bantay ng baby habang pasyal ni Jay-ar parents nya. Sa 2nd week naman ng May darating ang mom ko at ang aking shobe at shoti dito sa Malaysia at kami naman ang papasyal. Si mom naman ni Jay-ar ang bantay kay baby. Hehehe!

Eto pala (so far) ang mga pics ng gala namin with Jay-ar's mom. Click here.

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Learn to accept the things that you cannot change - this is what I am trying to do (so hard) right now. In God's help, I can do this.

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Just another thought, babae nga tlaga siguro ang baby ko, kasi masyado ko in love kay Jay-ar nowadays. Hehehe! Para kong nag lilihi all over again. And sometimes, it really surprises me on what one can do in the name of love. Figure that out. Hehehe! Ciao!

She Hiccups Inside My Womb

It has been 2-3 times already that I have been feeling this rhythmic movement of my baby inside my womb. It is like she's poking my belly in a constant interval of time. I described it to Jay-ar like "nagkukuyakoy si baby sa loob ng chan ko". Little did I know that she was hiccupping already. It was really a surprise for me as I did not know that baby can hiccup even inside the womb. Too bad I was not able to take note the first time I experienced this constant poking in my belly. It could have been a nice entry in her baby book. Hehehe!

I did some research and found out that hiccupping inside the womb is perfectly normal for a baby. One site even states that "Some research even suggests that hiccups are actually soothing to your baby, and help to relieve a variety of pressures on his growing lungs and organs".

Below is the write up I have found in the net why babies hiccups inside the womb.

Many pregnant women wonder what their baby is doing when they feel those rhythmic movements later in pregnancy. Most are surprised to learn their baby has the hiccups! That is right, many babies have the hiccups while they are in the womb and some babies have the hiccups multiple times per day. But, what causes this and why do babies hiccup in the womb anyway?

There has not been an overwhelming amount of research on fetal hiccupping in the womb, although there is some speculation as to why it happens. First of all, only more mature fetuses hiccup in the womb because their central nervous system is adequately developed in order to allow this to happen. It is believed that the fetus breathes in amniotic fluid or drinks it. When this happens and the amniotic fluid enters and exists the fetus lungs then the diaphragm contracts and hiccups results. Fetal hiccups appear to be extremely normal and almost all moms will feel the babies hiccups at least once if not on a regular basis.

Keep in mind that when you r fetus is hiccupping there is nothing wrong. You dont need to call your doctor or midwife, unless you feel something else is going on, and you dont need to freak out. Simply relax and enjoy feeling your baby move inside you.

A fun thing to do is to keep a record of when your babies hiccups en utero. This can be a fun piece of information to store in your baby book or share with your child when he/she is older.

Almost all women will feel their fetus hiccupping at least once during the pregnancy if not more. Some women dont recognize the rhythmic movement as hiccupping, but most do. In addition, some babies will hiccup on a daily basis and others even more frequently.

If your baby is hiccupping on a regular basis then you can feel free to mention it your doctor however you will be assured that hiccupping is normal and it in no way affects your child youre your heath.

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Isn't sooo cute? Now I am waiting for me to feel it again coz the next time I feel it, I know exactly what it is already. Unlike before, I was wondering what could my baby be doing inside me for me to feel the constant poking or the rhythmic tiny kicks. So the next time it happens again, I will just enjoy the feeling of it.

Maligayang Kaarawan sa Lalaking Nagpapaligaya sa Akin Araw-araw!

I cannot remember the first time I saw him. I know I have been introduced to him but the picture of how it was has been already erased on my mind. It was not actually love at first sight, I never believed in that after all. Though I remember the first time I saw his smile which made me fall head over heels with him. And until now, that same smile is what makes me crazy over him.

I love him so much. Sometimes I still wonder how I let myself fall this deep. It is really unexpected. Especially for a man-hater like me. Well, not anymore. I have loved and still loving a man more than my life. I remember when I used to tell my mom that I will be forever single and I will never ever get married. Guess what? I was married twice and with the same wonderful man.

I do not believe in love at first sight but I do believe in soulmates. I know that he is my soulmate - the one that God has chosen to be with me forever. And I am very grateful to Him for choosing Jay-ar for me. He may not be perfect, nobody is, but he is the perfect one for me and he will forever be my one and only love.

To Jay-ar, Happy Happy Birthday. Thank you for all your patience, love and thoughtfulness. I know I can be out of bounds sometimes but you always put up with my tantrums and mood swings. You are an amazing person in and out and I love you to pieces. I will always always be here for you no matter what. I will care for you and love you forever and beyond.

This song is for you.

WHEN I MET YOU

There I was an empty piece of shell
I smile in my own world without even knowing
What love and life was all about

Then you came, you brought me out of the shell
You gave the world to me and before I knew
There I was so in love with you

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I’m feeling
You gave new meaning to my life
Yes, I’ve gone beyond existing
And it all began
When I met you…

I love the touch of your hand
When i look in your eyes i just want
I know I’m on to something good

And I’m sure my love for you will endure
Your love will light up my world
And take all my fears

You taught me how to love
You showed me how tomorrow and today
My love is different from the yesterday i knew
You taught me how to love
And darling I will always cherish you
Today, tomorrow and forever

And I’m sure when evening comes around
I know we’d be making love like never before
My love who could ask for more

Hello World!

I am back. Yeah I know I've been gone for a while and even though I have lots of story to tell, I don't have much time to compose a decent post (sorry for that) so this will just be a quick post. Will just give a list of what happened this past couple of weeks and post some pictures. Complete set of photos will be uploaded @ my multiply site soon. Anyway, here goes:

1. Jay-ar and watched Youth Basketball SEA Tournament that was held in Malaysia. France Pumaren was their coach so we were able to take photos with him.


2. Watched Narnia Prince Caspian. I liked it better than the first one.

3. We had a massage @ Kenko. The first time we went there is for Fish Spa and this time we tried their massage package. I had the foot reflexology and Jay-ar and our housemate, May availed of the shoulder massage. We were all very satisfied with the service.

4. I cooked Molo soup and Jay-ar fell in love with me all over again. :)

5. Ate @ Ikea and played bowling. It was a day of good food and good fun!





6. Happy Birthday to me. Birthday dinner with Jay-ar @ Tony Romas in Pavilion Mall




7. Birthday Celebration @ our condo. It was a fun party. Thanks for those who come and those who greeted me. :)





8. Jay-ar bought me very beautiful orchids. He's the sweetest!



That's all folks! Until the next update. Take care y'all. Gdnyt! :)

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone! :]

10 Scientifically-Sound Tips to Improve Lovelife...:)

1. Ladies, don't show your IQ. Guys admire smart girls, but they don’t marry them. If your BF’s car broke down and you repaired it, that’s a blow to his ego. Guys are secretly afraid, too, that they can’t get away with their vices with a very smart girl. So, ladies, play it smart or, rather, play it dumb.

2. Find a complementary mate. If you’re a bookish person, you’d like to marry a street-smart guy. If the girl has an average IQ, she’d like to marry an intelligent guy. According to Leil Lowndes, author of wonderful book How to Make Anyone Fall in Love With You, we instinctively look for somebody who complements our weakness. In fact, studies show that dominant firstborns get along well with baby-like last-borns (their personalities mix well). This will bloom into a strong partnership later. Hence, showing what you have that the other lacks can make you attractive to the opposite sex.

3. Smile. Studies (yes, studies) have shown that the most effective way to attract the opposite sex is to smile. In a study of 750 encounters between men and women, 56 percent of conversations were initiated by smiling. Flipping the hair for ladies, and taking the direct approach came in second and third in effectivity.

4. Be helpful and generous. I know that helping may not be your thing, but nobody likes stingy and thrifty guys. Buy her take-home snacks. Volunteer to help in her work. Do errands for her. Who says you can’t mix work and courting?

5. Look near, not far. Again, studies show that the average distance between the homes of future couples is less than five blocks. That means your soul mate is just lurking within walking distance from your home right now. Forget about long-distance affairs. They’re tedious and prone to get intercepted by enterprising girls.

6. Don’t date a model. Unless you look like Richard Gomez, leave the Lucy Torreses alone. Studies show that most happy couples are about equal or come close in physical attractiveness. Be honest. Look at yourself in the mirror and rate yourself from 1 to 10. If you’re a 6-boy, you should only aim for an 8-girl at most. Look around, 75 percent of couples rank within two points on the attractiveness scale. An average-looking 5-guy shouldn’t go for a 9 or a 10-girl. It’s not possible and doesn’t portend a happy marriage later.

Of course, there are exceptions that tilt the balance: being rich, being influential, or having some other outstanding quality. If an old balding guy is walking with his young and pretty wife, what instantly crosses your mind? That guy is probably filthy rich. Or if you see a handsome guy with an average-looking girl, wow, she must have a nice personality! These are the exceptions but all in all, the attributes balance out.

7. Consider marrying someone in your line of work. In my experience, most doctors end up marrying a doctor. The belief is that it’s difficult for a layperson to understand the doctor’s lifestyle. Being called in the middle of the night and canceling family affairs due to an emergency can put a strain on a marriage. The same is true with other professions. It could be advantageous to marry someone in the same profession as yours.

8. Ladies, marry before 30. Factoid for ladies: The farther from graduation, the lower are your chances of marrying. Look around and see the multitude of unmarried ladies in their 30s. Even if you have a steady boyfriend, you’re still not safe. Ladies can easily lose their attractiveness during years of hard work.

And when you’re pushing 30, suddenly you’re competing for your BF’s attention with 21-year-olds. My advice: Tie your BF down. Threaten him if you must. Ask support from your parents and marry early. You can earn later. Sorry, but there’s no space for the many sob stories of ladies who lost their BFs to fresher competition.

For guys, your options are open.

Guys are lucky in that as they get older, their stature, confidence, and attractiveness grow. That is why most guys, especially professionals, find it easier to find a partner as they reach middle age. In fact, many Filipinos find a mate even after they’re married! Just the same, I would advise guys to plan (and commit) early.

9. Pray that you find the right one. To our readers, no need to be so choosy when finding a mate. Don’t look for a perfect person. There isn’t one. God, however, has a plan for you. Pray for the angels and the cupids to open your mind and heart. Your future partner could be the person seated beside you right now.

For me, loyalty, honesty, and diligence are good enough already. The money and the good looks you can work out later.

10. Lastly, there is always blessed singleness if one misses the boat. Anyway, there are lots of advocacies and projects lined up to fill your time. But never say never. A relative of mine postponed her marriage to her BF when she was 30. Then, 25 years later, she reunited with her long-lost BF (still single and now 55) and they finally tied the knot.

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2008 -- I'm Loving It! :]

I remember I said [I wrote rather] that I have a good feeling about this year 2008. Well, guess what???....

Thank you Lord for this...


And this...


2008 has just started... Am sure that it will keep on coming...
I love 2008!!! Thank you, thank you Lord!
And oh, somebody is going to resign soon... er, today?!?
Catch yah laterz guys! Mwah!

Malaysia Pixies

Our pics from one of my Malaysia Trips last year, with my yatzy and his friends.

What Oprah had to say about men (Nice Read)

• If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
• Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
• Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
• Slower is better.
• Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
• If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.
• If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
• The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
• Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
• Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
• Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
• Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
• You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
• Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
• Never let a man define who you are.
• Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
• A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
• All men are NOT dogs.
• You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is a two way street.
• You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
• You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.
• Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
• Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
• Never move into his mother's house.
• Never co-sign for a man.
• Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
• Keep him in your radar, but get to know others.

Weekend Bonanza

Ay naku! I had a terrible weekend.

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Please read on...

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Friday:

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I was attacked by weirdness last Friday night. I was happily chatting with my labidabi Jay-ar when all of a sudden a YM window popped up on my screen saying “Hello”. Checked who was it from and it was from my mom. Okay lang sana kaya lang nasa tabi ko ang mom ko that time watching TV! So I was surprised and told my mom that she just sent me a YM message. Of course, she was shocked as well. I asked her if she had given her password to somebody else. She said no. So obviously the person using her YM ID is a hacker. To know who it was, I kept on chatting with the impostor. I told her that I’m a student of hers (she was playing the role of my mom). Good thing she didn’t know that I am suppose to be her daughter. Hehehe! She tried to make me view her webcam twice but unfortunately it was not setup properly and for some reason, it didn’t work. Sayang! Gusto ko pa naman makita face nya. And what’s weird about it is that she had the guts to show her face to me to think that I know the person she was role-playing. She was also requesting to see my webcam and I told her that it was broken. And to make the long story short, I failed to know who that person is because my mom can’t take it anymore. She logged in using her account and changed the password, which means that the impostor was logged out from YM. Probably she tried to re-login using my mom’s account but to no avail. So that where our chat ended.

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And hindi pa po tapos yun. A minute or two right after that incident, another YM popped up on my screen. Another YM user was saying “Hello” to me. Gusto nya lang daw makipag kaibigan coz she was so bored in Singapore. Pinay din daw sya and she was accompanying her mom in Singapore. She let me view her webcam and grabe! mukha syang mumu! Katakot! Not because she was ugly pero dahil super duper kapal ng kanyang make-up. Mumu-effect tlaga! Hehehe! So I asked her how did she get my ID. She told me thru YM Search Philippines. I’m not familiar with that functionality of YM but I tried looking for it to make sure but I cannot find it. And then gusto nya makipag meet sakin when she comes back daw to the Philippines. Uwian nya daw ako ng webcam coz I also told her that my webcam is broken when she requested to see it. Sabi ko malayo ako sa Makati kahit na 15-min ride lang ito from our place pag walang traffic. So again to cut the story, all of a sudden she did not reply when I told her this. So we were thinking (my mom, my sis, Jay-ar & I) that the person acting as my mom & the second one is one person only because how did she ever know my YM ID. And probably she’s part of an illegal syndicate because she wanted to see me and she stopped chatting when I told her that I couldn’t. So that’s Friday night.

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Saturday:

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Saturday was kinda exhausting for me. I was supposed to leave the house @ exactly 10:45 am so that I would reach Sta. Rosa Laguna by 12 pm coz I will have lunch with my in-laws. But since I woke up late and I left the house later than expected, I reached Sta. Rosa around 12:30 pm. Kahiya nga kc pinaghinatay ko pa sila and they were probably hungry already. Anyway, this was not the only reason why I went to Sta. Rosa. We did a property tripping. O diba! Jay-ar wants to have our first property so we’re looking for a house & lot and Sta. Rosa is a good place for us because most of our relatives are from there. And the developer is Avida, one of the Ayala companies. So we expect that the place would really be nice and it is! I got home at around 5:30 pm due to traffic (I left Sta. Rosa @ 3 pm). I don’t know what happened to me but when I reached home, I feel so tired and sleepy and really exhausted. Probably because I am not used to long travels by land anymore. And also, I forgot to mention that I did not sleep well the night before that's why I woke up late. But despite of exhaustion, I was compelled to report immediately to my husband on what happened to the trip. And soon enough, I realized that I should have taken my rest first before chatting with him because due to my tiredness, I picked up a fight with my husband. *sadness*. Well, I won’t give the details anymore but we fought because of my bad. I shouldn’t have taken all my tiredness in him. Anyway, this fight is not just any ordinary fight, It was a big fight actually. He hated me that night and I hated him as well. I know it’s my fault but there were some expectations on my part from him that he did not do so I was really hurt and I cried myself to sleep that night.

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What happened on Sunday? - to be continued… It's late already ... hehehe!

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Continuation...

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Sunday:

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When I woke up Sunday morning, I felt like everything is turning because I did not sleep well mainly because of our fight. And at that time, masama pa din ang loob ko kay Jay-ar. The case is not the same with him. Okay na sya. Kailangan lang nya itulog ang lahat and then okay na sya, which is good for him actually. Or should I say, good for both of us. But despite the fact na okay na sya, he didn’t want to accept half of the blame. For him, it was my entire fault. And yes, at first, it was really all my fault, but when we were fighting or 'arguing' for a better term, there was also inconsideration on his part. So he said that we should be okay and that he already forgave me for picking up a fight with him. But I was still not okay. Not okay because I also wanted him to admit his mistakes. And on this day (Sunday), we were still arguing on whose fault it was and who was right and who was wrong. At the end, I gave way. Yes I did! Because it will never end if we are both so insisting. So I told him, ‘okay, I don’t totally agree with you but just to end this thing, next time we will do it your way.’ Well if you’re kinda confused on what I was talking about, we were actually arguing on how are we going to handle things when we’re fighting. Hehehe! Kasi ang gs2 nya, we settle it the next day so that both of us have cooled down. Ako naman, I don’t want to end the day without talking about and fixing it. Pero as I’ve said, I let him won! So next time we argue, we will just discuss it the next day. This is only applicable when we fight at night. But if it’s morning, then we have the whole day to talk about it or should I say, argue about it. Hehehe!

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But I am proud to say that despite our many differences, we love each other so much. Actually marami talaga kaming hindi pinag kakasunduan. And to tell you the truth, magkaiba talaga ang ugali namin. BUT we are doing okay, well... i can say that more than okay. Kasi we love each other very very much. One thing that I will never forget is when he told me that I should not be worried if we talk about it the next day coz whatever we are fighting about, he will still love me, no matter what. *aaawwww* hehehe! Haaay, I really love that man so much… 8^) So Sunday night, we love each other again and I hope that next fight, we can work things out smoothly and easily. Hehehe! Well, hindi naman tlaga nawawala ang away… What’s important is that you fix it and you still love each other despite all arguments and differences. 8^)

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Okay back to work na muna ako… hehehe!

*Sadness*

You told me you love me. But tell me again, do you still love me now? After all that has been said and done, I don't think I am in the position to believe everything that you will say. Coz if you really love me, you will not take me for granted and if you really love me you will consider my feelings. If you really love me, you will not hurt me.

So please, don't say you love me. Coz you don't.

>enigma<